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Potential for greatness

admin — Sat, 22 Jan 2011 18:54:30 +0000

Yes, I actually graduated from nursing school. Yes, somehow I passed boards. And yes, now I’m a working nurse (in training). And it’s somewhat terrifying! There is all this information and I feel like I know none of it! Do I even know how to keep a patient alive?! At this point, after a week on the floor I feel like I’m a bit in survival mode. Get my tasks done, keep my patients alive, chart, chart, chart!

I was driving in the car with David the other day and I was looking all around me and it hit me how amazing it is that we have, light poles, cars that run, planes in the air, shoes on our feet, books, t.v., on and on. How does it work? How did it come about? Who thought one day “I’ll do this and put this, this and this together” and BAMO, an automobile is made. Way back when, none of this was around. God made us with so much potential, with so much creativeness and look now at all these accomplishments. To me, it’s quite amazing, especially since I have a hard enough time putting dinner together each night.

I feel very self motivational right now but I was thinking that en-light of these thoughts, I have the potential to be a great nurse. Yes, after awhile anyone can get good at their job but I want to be better than just “good at my job” I want to be great. I don’t want to limit myself. To you reading this, don’t limit yourself! Be great, stretch yourself, do things that make you uncomfortable, grow, and create! The creator of the universe created us, in His image! Be great!

How am I going to do this? Day by day. Praying and pondering, “Lord, what have you put before me today?” Then go about doing it to my best ability, learn, grow and hopefully, enjoy the process too.

Enduring Moment

admin — Thu, 02 Dec 2010 16:20:58 +0000

I’m not sure if you’ve ever been to the bathroom on an airplane but it’s small, quite small. You walk in, take a half turn, sit down, stand up, take another half a turn, wash your hands, take a step to the side and exit :) David, Mia and I went on a retreat with my Mom in Ohio and on the second flight, I was holding Mia and she had quite a few “putt, putts” as my mother in law puts it. Lately if we don’t change those diapers, it’s full on blow out, and nobody wants that, especially on a small airplane. I leaned forward cause David was in the seat in front of me and asked him if he thought I should try and go change her, we both decided I probably should. So I walked into the bathroom with Mia, did our half turns and luckily there was a small fold down changing table. We did our thing and as I was about ready to leave we hit some hard core turbulence. I held Mia with one arm, pressed my back against the wall and tired to stable us with the other arm. I went to unlock the door a few times but couldn’t quite balance myself, when I finally did unlock the door, it flapped open and then closed a few times. I felt surprisingly calm but still a little scared, but when I looked up, it was the most enduring moment as I saw four to five men looking back at the bathroom because they all knew I was in there with the baby. As I started walking down the isle everyone was grabbing my arms to steady me and Mia, helping us back to our seat, I genuinely needed that help to get back to my seat and I felt very grateful for it. I feel like I never want to be in a moment of “need”, feel helpless, but in this case, I needed help and got it, and I was so blessed by it.

Apple Orchard

admin — Sun, 14 Nov 2010 04:41:53 +0000

What having a child has taught me about being a child of God

admin — Fri, 05 Nov 2010 21:29:15 +0000

I’ve only been a Mom for a little over three months now but I feel like I’m exploding with new feelings, emotions and thoughts! One thing I’ve been wanting to share is how having a child has taught me more about being a child of God.

Mia can’t do anything for me. She’s actually pretty helpless and quite needy. But, I love her more than I can speak in words. My heart explodes with love for her and not because she does anything for me, but because she is my child. I think it is the same way with Christ and us. We may think we do things to earn Christ’s love but let’s get real, for me at least, I know I am actually pretty helpless and quite needy. Yet I know Christ loves me more than I love Mia, beyond what I can imagine, because I am His child.

When Mia cries or is hurting, I am right there. I try to comfort her, hold her close to me, rock her, sing to her, and try to help her. I think then, how much more would Christ be with us when we are hurting. I have all these instincts as a parent to be right there and try to help her, I will do my best but I am not perfect, I will fail her. But Christ is perfect, and I know his love for me is perfect. It comforts me to know that He is right there when I am hurting, He loves me perfectly and is the perfect comforter.

Lastly, I love, love, love it when Mia sees me and smiles in delight. I love that she knows my face and always lights up. When I talk and play with her and she smiles and laughs, oh my, there is almost nothing better. It’s the best thing in the world. I love that she knows me, it delights me. In the same way, I think Christ wants to be known, wants us to know His face and is delighted when we delight in Him.

I know there’s so much more I will learn as Mia grows, I can already think of other parallels. Discipline, her breaking my heart and still loving her…

If you have a child, what have they taught you?

The Tears Inside

admin — Fri, 05 Dec 2008 04:53:16 +0000

The other day I started a casual conversation with a girl from work and it lead into talking about kids, pregnancy and c-sections. She briefly mentioned she had her first c-section because of an emergency and lost the baby. I could tell she was trying to keep the casual conversation tone, but even as she glanced down I could see the pain in her face and the slight tear in her eye. The moment didn’t last long, she was able to shake it off but I saw it. I saw her pain.

That moment really affected me. It reminded me that so many people walk around with pain and tears inside. And everyone deals with there pain differently. Being quiet, angry, loud, crazy, shut down…

The next time someone treats me rudely or wrong, blows up at me, acts insecure, is very quiet – I hope I remember to give them grace, I hope I don’t judge too quickly, and I hope I don’t take it personally. Remembering that each person has walked their own journey, has probably experienced great pain or will, and has their own set of insecurities and fears.

Black Friday

admin — Sat, 29 Nov 2008 06:45:53 +0000

There is something VERY wrong with this story:
Wal-Mart Worker Dies When Shoppers Break Down Doors

Now, I’m not all anti-shopping the day after thanksgiving… I’ve gone a few times. Yet, the more I think about it, it does seem sad that the day after thanksgiving, the day we are to be thankful, remembering all that we are blessed with – we have black friday. A day of get, get, get and want, want, want. Seems a bit ironic doesn’t it?

Don’t get me wrong cause I love to shop but I am rethinking this whole black friday shopping day. I’m certianly not judging you if you do go. And I can’t say I’ll never go again, but when I think about it in my heart of hearts, I can’t help but feel that I may not be going in the future. I had such a fun day with the family, playing games and hanging out at home – who knows, maybe this will become my family’s tradition.

What are your thoughts and feelings about black friday?

Bubbly.

admin — Sun, 23 Nov 2008 02:27:19 +0000

If I were’nt allergic I think we’d probalby have a dog. But… since we can’t, we decided on a whim to go pick up our first pet as a married couple. Haha. And here he is! Bubbly!! It was between him and a bright yellow one. He won cause he made us laugh with his humongo eyes. I like this picture cause it’s totally him with his big round eyes, and it looks like he is frowning. I dont’ think he liked the plastic bag… or us. But hopefully the bag :)